Lilac.

dont feel like writing chinese in bokee... 

just finished watching the internal affairs 2 for dont know how many times... 
still feel sad towards the characters... 


why we need to suffer in this world? 
isnt the world meant to be a happy place? 
suddenly remembered the values of the ancient egyptians, who believed that the life is a journey of suffering, and it is used to struggle by all means in order to build a wonderful world for the time after death... 

i always thought this is a pessimistic belief...
but, why it makes me feel so real?! the world, the affairs in life are too real...
>.< sighs... 



i finished my second block tests for this year, now only the end of year tests are left for the final year for nanyang... 
as expected, i m eager to end my stay in nanyang!!!! 
anyway...to get rid of some of the ridiculous teachers is a huge relief at least... 
erm...although the BTs are end, there are still tons of stuff to mingle with!!! 
ah!!!!

Just came back from qiang mai finals. 



Qing xiang can really sing! OMG, he can sing so beautifully and movingly...
 I nearly shed tears when he was singing the last song... 
everything was just peaceful then, with a piece of sadness. 
his beautiful voice just filled everybody's ear, with all his sentimental moves... 
i was there and then, being silent for the first time of the night... 



then, worse still, kelvin and xiao mo sang that song by wu ke qun, whose lyrics are simple but touching... 
i didnt even have time and space to hide my sudden random emotion...
so i picked my bag and ran off... 



maybe seashell was right when i asked her why she hates birthday so much when we were both 13. 
she told me, she hates the loneliness after celebrations. 
i doubted about that when she said those words beside me. 
but now, i might understand her. 
it s not just loneliness, its even despair after greatness. 
i feel lost now... 



i think im craving for a hug...
more than ever... >.<

                

Yesterday was the xiao hua xiao cao audition. 
I didt even believe there is such a thing until i really saw the audition yesterday afternoon in SPH. 
Remembered last year, Jieyi tried to make to into that crazy stuff...and luckily, i escaped. 

Then, the audition was like...totally a drama enjoyed only by our TXYs - a bunch of crazy people. 
Tangjie, whom i am not quite familiar with, was like cheering for each and every candidate, and she even tried to ask us to cheer with her! 
OMG, and we actually did! It was so crazy! 
The candidates were shocked because we were totally strangers to him or her. 
The MC - Yuneng - is annoyed because we were totally interfering the smooth flow of the audition. 
BUT, the judges were so calm...they did not even give a glimpse at us... 

The Xiao Cao of last year is CUTE! Tall enough, slim enough, gentleman enough, and CUTE enough!!! haha... 
Huijun told me he is probably taken. 
So anyway, I was just crazy yesterday... 

I think yesterday was in the end a happy day. 
Even more enjoyable than the last day of orientation. 
Reasonless, but just feel relaxed. 
More importantly, I was MYSELF yesterday... haha... 

Time for meeting...

Here is a new starting point.
I wanted to wait for a more grand date to move my blog.
But, I decide I would come here this afternoon, in the computer lab.
Life should not be restricted too much. 
Sometimes, an impulse might create more exitement.
So, that is why I ended up here.
Life moves on...
It is just I found a new place to dream!

=D